Hey, you.

I brought this upon myself. Yet why is it that I'm so affected? It pains me to simply look at you. Questions keep popping in my head: what ifs, what could have beens, what should have beens, you get the picture. Damn. The thing is, I made the decision. I brought us to this situation. But it looks like you've been able to move forward and go on with your life. Why is it that I'm still standing on that moment when I lied to you, when I said that I no longer had those feelings. I was so confident at that time that I was going to get over it. Turns out I overestimated myself. Now, I'm still stuck in that moment, stagnated.

Thing is, I still have my pride. I won't go telling you that I want things to go back to the way they were before. Even if I want that so bad, I won't let you know. I stand by my decision and I'll face the consequences of that decision. And when the day comes that have learned the value of acceptance, when I've learned to let go and move on, I will pass by your way with my chin high and my heartbeat steady. I won't have anything holding me back. By then, I won't have thoughts of you or of what we had stopping me. By then, those thoughts and memories will just be a part of my past, something I can easily forget, or at least casually talk about.

Until that day comes... Until that day comes...

~coffeeandmusiclover~