I always pass by the church before class because it was one way to assure myself that I'm starting my day right. Well, that was before I became a graduating student. Lately, I haven't been able to pass by the church before class and not even after. I keep blaming time but honestly, it's my own initiative that's to blame. No, I'm not fixated in that stage of pre-schoolers, but for some reason, whenever I realize that I should go to church and talk to God, something keeps holding me back. Even during those times when I am able to convince my feet to walk to the church, my mind is always racing and I just find it hard to organize my thoughts. I try to pray and talk to God, but I can't remove those troubling thoughts from entering my mind and disrupting me.
I actually feel bad that I can no longer maintain that habit. Of all my habits, going to church is probably the only one that's good. It's funny how I know what's wrong with the picture and yet I am not doing anything about it. Hm. That's even worse that not knowing the problem at all, huh?
~coffeeandmusiclover~
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